When I Find Myself In Times of Trouble, Mother Mary Comes To Me (August 21, 2023)
During my entire life, I have been an extremely guarded person. As a child, I suffered emotional and physical abuse from those that told me they loved me. When you meet me today, it's hard to imagine that I was once a child who was sent home from school because I "smelled bad." I mean, the principal literally pulled me out of class and sent me home to take a bath. I may appear to have a good handle on life these days, but on the inside, I struggle daily with thoughts of that little boy. I battle fears daily that I don't deserve the life I currently have. I'm not worthy of a life so fulfilling. I struggle each and every day with the thoughts that I don't want the world to know the true me, because if they did, they wouldn't like me very much. On the outside, I appear calm, cool, and collected, but on the inside, I am emotionally unbalanced, uncool, and very much a mess. For the people that I love and trust, I wear my heart on my sleeve. I cry for them.